Mark R18.

My Alcoholic Demon

was started by a female, starting a rumor.

That I’m gay?

Not true!

Around the age of 17, I’m now 45.

Facing your demon.

Is a term for dealing with the repressed or unconscious aspects of your personality. You may have repressed them for a variety of reasons and remain consciously unaware of them.

The term originally meant a spiritual being that influenced a person’s character.

When I drink the demon goes thank God.

Freedom of speech. … In particular, freedom of expression is preserved in section 14 of the New Zealand Bill of Rights Act 1990 (BORA) which states that: “Everyone has the right to freedom of expression, including the right to seek, receive, and impart information and opinions of any kind in any form”.

I haven’t had Peace of mind, in my mind since 2002.

19 years New Zealand.

Also very little support!

Law, Human Rights, Verbal abuse, Conscience, Nerve & Incompetence.

2002

Forget about my three male sexual abusers, before I was 18. Dad’s cancer & my parents breakup.

Law

Natural law is a theory in ethics and philosophy that says that human beings possess intrinsic values that govern their reasoning and behavior. Natural law maintains that these rules of right and wrong are inherent in people and are not created by society or court judges.

Human Rights.

Act 1993.

The act provides for establishment of National Human Rights Commission,State Human right Commission and Human Rights Courts,

which seeks to prevent and punish any gross violation of human rights.

Discrimination occurs when a person is treated unfairly or less favourably than another person in the same or similar circumstances.

Verbal abuse.

Verbal abuse, also known as emotional abuse, is a range of words or behaviors used to manipulate, intimidate, and maintain power and control over someone. These include insults, humiliation and ridicule, the silent treatment, and attempts to scare, isolate, and control.

Conscience.

Conscience describes two things – what a person believes is right and how a person decides what is right. More than just ‘gut instinct’, our conscience is a ‘moral muscle’.

By informing us of our values and principles, it becomes the standard we use to judge whether or not our actions are ethical.

Nerve.

If you say that someone has a nerve or has the nerve to do something, you are criticizing them for doing something which you feel they had no right to do or say.

Incompetence.

Incompetence means different things to different people, but generally it denotes the inability to do a job to a satisfactory standard.

Here are five general steps to follow to get someone declared legally incompetent:

  1. File for Guardianship. …
  2. Consult an Attorney. …
  3. Schedule a Psychological Evaluation. …
  4. Submit the Evaluation to the Court. …
  5. Attend the Hearing.

London.

In 2002 in London I Nursed as a Nursing Auxiliary. I was on call. I get a phone call from my Agency at 11pm. Mark we have a special job for you. I get there. I get introduced to a man lying flat on his back with an oxygen mask on. No tshirt. He has no arms or legs. There were two other ladies there both with masks on. I helped hold him on his side so they the lady could clean him and put a new nappy on him. The ladies didn’t really talk to me much. The lady says, this is where you’ll lye. How funny a couch bed, window couch, just long enough to fit my body while I sleep. A cushion pillow and no blanket etc. Lol. I got woken up a few times during the night to help clean him. A lady comes up to me in the morning, she says, you can go now. To a gutter sucker truck at the doorstep lol.

I get post trauma every now and then.

I didn’t share this with any of my girlfriends in London or since I’ve been back in Auckland over the past 19 years. Nor have I shared with many people at all, about how I received a text in London near the time to this Nursing Auxiliary Job, hi I thought I saw you on the streets of London with no teeth. Lol.

Kent, Cup winners. Brookers v Railway & Bike.

New Zealand Football.

Mark scores three great goals, in three games for two different Clubs. Two from right fullback and one with the second Club a header from a cross. 2002.

Neither Club signed me.

With the first Club I won the preseason forest run. I then went for a 13km run and then within a week the below.

Mental Health. Take one.

2002 until 2021.

The Kiwi Professor was Wright, if you’re a Christian Alcoholic, alot of my non-believers Kiwi friends are too. You’re just a dry drunk. Within a week in the Mental Health Unit, “you’re Schizophrenic”

( NOT! ).

Off the back of my Nursing Auxiliary Job and the London text. Thanks alot Professor!

Takapuna Pub.

I walk in within a minute this Kiwi bloke rudely comes up to me. Never met him in my life. He says “it’s okay if you’re Schizophrenic”. Loser, he then goes you’ve got sign writing on your car. Yes Loser my Business NIV IT NOW slogan.

NZ Police.

The Cop was spot on, not. Your sexual abuser when you were 14, “he pleaded not guilty, he’s a nice guy and has a prominent position in the Community”.

The Cop at ED, he says to the Nurse, “he’s a Mental patient” lol.

The Colonoscopist Dr.

The Kiwi female Assistant was correct in telling him to take it out, having rammed it up me 3 or 4 times when after the Bowel test, he as a Professional, should have just taken it straight out.

Smokefree NZ.

“If you want to kill yourself just put patches all over your body”.

The female Nurse at the Hospital.

I take two Zopiclone sleeping benzo tablets before I start my Shift. As she gives me mine to get to sleep.

My Dr ( GP ).

My old female Dr was checking my private parts. She walks away saying, “small dick”. The females love it, perfect body part!

Corrections.

The Supervisor for the day. He says, “every New Zealander has a Mental Health problem”.

Mental Health. Take two.

Mental Health decided that a recovery ( Institution ) house was good for me. I’ve been living with two Scizoprenics, a person with Dementia and a person with brain damage from a car accident. For 13 months. My flatmate ( not ) can’t even aim while he’s on the toilet. He aims on the floor. He hasn’t once initiated a conversation to me since I’ve lived here. The reason I know what the other fours Mental Health conditions are is because one of the Staff can’t keep their mouth shut. The (Man)ager decided that after nearly a year I was mature enough to control my own Patches and gum. Lol. She suggested that Special Group Events etc would be good for me. wtf? The other day, she goes, another day, still alive. Bad words for Recovery house. One of the weird female staff members, says, when are you going to grow. She then goes onto say, I don’t mean in height lol. How cruel, I’m 45 and grow while you’re living in a place like this. I know what she said b***h. She comes from a rich family and is just a snob! Ball games in the morning wtf. One of the females that lives here, said have fun at your Grandma’s funeral. One of the male Staff goes, another day, still survivng. wtf? Another well said set of words for Recovery house. They probably think I have a Mental Health problem. They’ve been getting me to sign while I take my meds ( poison ). The new Caual at the so called Recovery house was asked to share about herself in the morning meeting. She goes on to say, I like drinking whiskey wtf. Well said to a meeting of people that apparently will exit here one day. The staff in the last 14 Months have not even noticed that I have a eating disorder. I haven’t has breakfast or lunch since I’ve lived here. Sometimes they do our groceries due to Covid, they haven’t even noticed that I don’t buy any breakfast or lunch food items. A Staff Member said in front of the others at one of the morning meetings, Mark’s Graduated and is moving on. wtf. People go backwards here, not forwards.

You see their was nothing wrong with my head in the first place. Since 2002. I’ve put on weight because of the meds ( I don’t like my body ). They’ve ( Psychiatrists ) have changed my diagnosis more than ten times since 2002. Not only have I put on weight but I’ve lost all my fitness and I can’t run more than 200 metres. My old Keyworker said, even if you run 100 metres wtf.

To note my old Psychiatrist said in a meeting Mark when are you going to kill yourself, in front of me and my old Community Peer support worker. My Keyworker who works beside the Psychiatrist was not in the meeting so the Psychiatrist probably thought he’d get away with it. Wtf. I talked to the so called Advocacy people, well a lady. She writes a letter to the Waitamata District Health Board. I told her what my then Psychiatrist had said and his name. She wrote in the letter that I can’t remember the Psychiatrists name. Lol. What a disgrace. Surprise surprise she’s a Foreigner and obviously just doesn’t know how to do her Job properly. Of course I had told her his name. Wtf. 

No acknowledgement from Mental Health hierarchy and it’s been nearly three months since I made the complaint. No one in Mental Health has the balls to do their Job properly and you wonder why NZ has a Mental Health problem!.

They’ve manufactured me into a Mental Health case since 2002. I was fragile back then and the meds took control of my brain and mood. My actions Sins were have all been Mental Health and meds manufactured. There’s no accountability. Just to sum up, my previous Psychiatrists have not once even asked what my Business is or how’s it going. Lol. They think packing shelves at a Supermarket would suit this manufactured Invalid. Lol. All my old Keyworker could say was, oh I’ve heard you’ve been working on some Projects. Just when you think things are getting better. My new Keyworker. Oh Mark I think your old Keyworker put you into that funny house. No real well done handover lol. Even though I’ve been nearly waiting three months for my new Psychiatrist, my new Keyworker says if you want to stay with your current Psychiatrist it might be a good idea. Even though I disclosed to her many times that he said, when are you going to kill yourself lol. Two weak replies in the first month of what I hoped would be a supportive Keyworker. Kiwis seems like it’s all about mind games.

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Law

Natural law is a theory in ethics and philosophy that says that human beings possess intrinsic values that govern their reasoning and behavior. Natural law maintains that these rules of right and wrong are inherent in people and are not created by society or court judges.

Human Rights.

Act 1993.

The act provides for establishment of National Human Rights Commission,State Human right Commission and Human Rights Courts,

which seeks to prevent and punish any gross violation of human rights.

Discrimination occurs when a person is treated unfairly or less favourably than another person in the same or similar circumstances.

Verbal abuse.

Verbal abuse, also known as emotional abuse, is a range of words or behaviors used to manipulate, intimidate, and maintain power and control over someone. These include insults, humiliation and ridicule, the silent treatment, and attempts to scare, isolate, and control.

Conscience.

Conscience describes two things – what a person believes is right and how a person decides what is right. More than just ‘gut instinct’, our conscience is a ‘moral muscle’.

By informing us of our values and principles, it becomes the standard we use to judge whether or not our actions are ethical.

Nerve.

If you say that someone has a nerve or has the nerve to do something, you are criticizing them for doing something which you feel they had no right to do or say.

Incompetence.

Incompetence means different things to different people, but generally it denotes the inability to do a job to a satisfactory standard.

Here are five general steps to follow to get someone declared legally incompetent:

  1. File for Guardianship. …
  2. Consult an Attorney. …
  3. Schedule a Psychological Evaluation. …
  4. Submit the Evaluation to the Court. …
  5. Attend the Hearing.

Law, Human Rights, Verbal abuse, Conscience, Nerve & Incompetence.

I haven’t had Peace of mind, in my mind since 2002.

19 years New Zealand.

Also very little support!

I lived independently in Europe for 5 years.

London

October 1997 until 2002.

Auckland

Freedom of speech. … In particular, freedom of expression is preserved in section 14 of the New Zealand Bill of Rights Act 1990 (BORA) which states that: “Everyone has the right to freedom of expression, including the right to seek, receive, and impart information and opinions of any kind in any form”.

Articulate.

verb/ɑːˈtɪkjʊleɪt/

1.pronounce (something) clearly and distinctly.”he articulated each word with precision”

Disposition.

dɪspəˈzɪʃ(ə)n/

1.person’s ( inherent. ( LAW ) vested in (someone) as a right or privilege ). Qualities of mind and character.

2.the way in which something is placed or arranged.

3.the power to deal with something as one pleases.